It's only a day away!
We will be meeting our son just after 8am tomorrow. We have to be at the hospital at 6am for monitoring and the pre-surgery bloodwork, etc. I'll be honest, I'm a ball of nerves right now and an emotional mess.
I go from being excited to meet our little man and seeing how much he looks like Colin, to feeling incredibly guilty for messing up Colin's own little world. As Scott pointed out, he's losing 50% of everything he's ever known, and that makes me sad :-( I keep trying to tell myself that he's gaining a brother, and that makes up for anything he's "losing".
But I gotta tell you, saying goodbye to my little man tonight was one of the hardest things I've done (he's spending the night at Grandma & Grandpa's house since we have to leave for the hospital at 5:30am). He has no clue how his life is about to change.
I spent all day today soaking up every little moment with Colin. He gots TONS of extra hugs & kisses from me and I think we both loved every second of it! I will admit though that it'll be nice to have him sit on my lap without this ginormous belly LOL I wonder if he even remembers me without it? ;-)
Anyways, I know I never posted about Colin's 2nd birthday, but there just doesn't seem to be much time anymore. And I'm sure things are going to be even crazier with Jackson here. Hopefully we'll all fall into a routine that works for all of us and doesn't leave me too sleep deprived LOL
I'll make sure to post pics as soon as I get a chance!
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Great! Now you got ME crying here at work, LOL!
I'm thinking of you today and can't wait to hear from you (I'm going to have to put a sign up in my office saying, "I haven't heard anything" so people don't barge in here every five minutes saying, "Have you heard from Kerry yet?" LOL!!!)
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